TESTING POSITIVE: David’s Story
I was diagnosed as HIV+ at 09:05, November 3rd 2014, aged 25. A bright morning with a cold, crisp breeze that let you know winter was around the corner. I had tested the week before in my local GUM clinic. At the time I would visit the clinic every 3-5 months for routine screening. I had been really unwell the month before with an unusual illness, that it could be HIV had crossed my mind, so I had my suspicions.
Suspicions however did not prepare me for the news. I was devastated. I was conscious of other STIs, but did not think that HIV really affected young people. The previous few years I had been struggling with my mental health, unemployment and being unable to support myself independently. I had hit rock bottom. My diagnosis felt like evidence that I deserved the situation I had found myself in.
I knew that I needed to break down my barriers and ask for help. Through it all I have been gifted with great friends. I borrowed some money and spent two weeks visiting those closest to me. Getting the weight off my shoulders was the greatest thing I did in those early days. I do not think I would be alive today and flourishing without their love and support.
I started treatment 10 months later on my clinician’s recommendation, though if given the choice again today I would start immediately. Being on treatment helped me shed the shame around my diagnosis, I was taking control of my health and my life. I quickly became undetectable, and I learnt that If I maintained my treatment I would live as long as my peers and I could not pass on the virus: Undetectable = Untransmittable.
About a year ago I trained to be a peer mentor. I firmly believe that peer support should be offered and encouraged for all people living with HIV, especially at point of diagnosis. Working with other positive people, sharing our lived experience and supporting each other is profoundly empowering.
If you are a young person that has been diagnosed then seek out help! Contact your local HIV service and access peer support if it is available. Reach out to someone close to you. You are not alone, you can get through this and become a stronger person because of it.
When I was diagnosed, I thought HIV would tip me over the edge. But living with HIV and facing those challenges head on helped me develop the tools to transform the rest of my life. Three years down the line those dark days seem like they were in another life. I am a proud positive young man, flourishing in a new career. I am happy, healthy and own my HIV.