Tuesday, December 4th, 2018
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Friday, November 30th, 2018
By Becky Pang
I wanted to share with you the first bit of public HIV activism I did, this took place 2 years ago on World Aids Day 2016. I was asked to do a short public speech about stigma. I was excited to be asked but I was also very nervous about talking about my status to an audience. At first I tried to write a speech about stigma and keep it neutral and not mention myself at all. However I’m not that sort of person, me experiencing HIV and living with it gave the best voice to talk about stigma.
This caused a massive argument between me and my boyfriend at the time he didn’t want me to put myself out there like that. I was proud to do this speech, to prove to myself how far I had come in a year since diagnosis. The year before I was down, depressed and looking for all sorts of escapes to get away from thinking about my status. I asked my parents and a few close friends to come and watch.
On the day I went over my speech and wrote it out. I was mostly excited. When I got there I was last on the programme. Four people spoke about HIV before me, mostly people who were not living with HIV. I grew more nervous as the time went on. I looked across the crowd of around 30 people and noticed the local LGBT youth group had come along. Stood there was one of my students. She hadn’t seen me yet. I met and spoke with the CEO of the charity running the event and he assured me that if I wanted to back out and not speak because of her being there he (or anyone else) wouldn’t think less of me. But I knew the girl and I trusted her not to spread my status about.
I have a video of the speech but I don’t think it is a good enough quality to share.
I went to the platform, caught the student’s eye and gave her a big smile. She looked shocked; I didn’t look back at her again, I may have crumbled! During the speech I was nervous, my voice was shaking, I felt I touched my hair too much, gestured too much and talked a little bit too fast. But people responded. When I was talking I saw people nodding to what I was saying. They laughed at my small jokes and murmured agreements. When I was finished I got a massive round of applause. The charity had bought me some flowers and the CEO was moved to tears (a reaction I was not expecting!).
Afterwards everyone was telling me how brave I was to talk so openly. It didn’t feel brave, it felt like I was exploiting having HIV and all the help everyone had given me for a networking opportunity. Mainly I just hoped that I could influence some of the opinions of people listening. The ones who weren’t living with HIV, the kids in the LGBT group, the ones who came with friends or just stumbled across the vigil and listened to see what was going on. That they would go away from there with fewer stigmas about people with HIV.
I found my student and asked if I could have a word. I asked if she wouldn’t mind not spreading this around school, to which she promised she wouldn’t. After that I asked how she was and if she was doing ok. With the deepest sincerity in her eyes she looked at me, put her hand on my arm and said “Miss, are you ok?” It was so sweet I laughed to stop myself choking up and said “yeah I am now”.
I want to talk to you about stigma, the stigma surrounding HIV and AIDS.
We are lucky that in this country because of our brilliant medical services that having HIV doesn’t mean what it meant 30 years ago. HIV patients live long, happy and healthy lives.
I was tempted to say HIV sufferers. But I don’t suffer, not really. I suffered when I was diagnosed I was all consumed by the thoughts of people judging me. What will they think, what can I possibly do to explain? Every time I told someone I felt compelled to give them a list of my sexual history just so they knew it wasn’t me, it wasn’t my fault…..I wasn’t a whore or an addict, just unlucky. If you were diagnosed with diabetes would you be compelled to tell your friends all the fattening and sugary foods you’d been eating? It’s just not the same is it?
So why the stigma?
From my point of view its two things, one is sex, how most people get it. British people don’t like talking about sex and that’s one of the reasons the barriers are there. The other is the lack of education. I work in education and you’d be surprised that the myths are still there, you can catch it from a toilet seat, catch it from kissing, that you can’t have children. One I still believed until I was diagnosed.
I hope that young people having a good education will help the elders of our communities change their opinion.
I myself have never experienced any discrimination because of my status, not directly anyway….but the suggestion of it lingered. A few months after if I told people about it, I wanted to talk again but it was very hard to bring up, the topic seemed taboo. Like ‘yes we know you have it but let’s not talk about it in public’
Now I’m not wanting to wear a badge saying “I’m positive ask me how!?” But why can’t I bring it up in conversation with my friends?
Because it makes others uncomfortable. Uncomfortable to talk about it, uncomfortable to ask about it and uncomfortable to be asked about it. I had one friend tell me that she wanted to ask me how I was doing how I was feeling and coping be she felt she couldn’t that she shouldn’t because of the stigma around it.
Now no one I have told is a bad person, they all mean well and have accepted my diagnosis but some still judge others about how they might have caught it and have said things like ‘you just don’t know do you?’
And they’re right, I don’t know. I don’t care to know. It doesn’t matter to me, it shouldn’t matter. It was like it’s ok we accept you because we know you but anyone else we’ll still judge. All that matters is helping them so they have support, so they can manage and live without stigma without being discriminated and so it doesn’t develop into aids anymore because we won’t let it.
Without the help of my Dr and all the nurses and everyone who works at the clinic I wouldn’t be able to talk to you all like this. I remember hearing about this event last year and I couldn’t even bring myself to attend. Let alone be a participant. I want to help now, I know I can offer that support to someone who might come up against stigma from friends, family or co-workers. So at least they would know that there is someone who cares who is happy to talk about HIV. Because we all should be open to talk about it. So more people are safe and more get tested and it’s not hidden away anymore.
Follow Becky on Twitter @poz_woman87
Tuesday, November 27th, 2018
SALARY £25,000 to 27,000 per annum pro rata, depending on experience
HOURS 15 hours per week
DURATION 1 Year fixed-term contract
This one-year project will build on the success of the 2018 Catwalk 4 Power Resistance and Hope. Our pilot model gathered over 20 women with HIV to promote action to challenge stigma through creative participatory methods.
In 2019 the Catwalk for Power will create three series of workshops, with three different women’s groups (London, Brighton and Manchester), to look at the roots of stigma towards women with HIV and develop skills and strategies to confront it. The workshops will lead to the performance of three Catwalks 4 Power, where women with HIV will manifest empowerment through their performances and with the outfits they have styled and/or designed.
The project coordinators and volunteers will also do outreach in the wider community through local market stalls. Markets are a key place for social interaction between women, therefore each catwalk group will organize two market stalls displaying products produced during the workshops to disseminate information and raise awareness through women-specific HIV resources.
At the end the project coordinators in collaboration with volunteers, participants and Positively UK staff, will produce a report in the form of a Catwalk 4 Power ‘toolkit’ , to share learning so that other women’s groups around the world can be inspired and know how to create their own Catwalks for Power.
020 7713 0444 or email@example.com
Tuesday, November 27th, 2018
As the festive season is upon us, I’m aware that many of you might have plans, so the team at Positively UK thought it might be a great idea to have some teas, coffees, mulled wine and mince pies. So, if you’re around on Thursday 6th December; there are two drop in times to join us. 10am-12 noon and for those who might want to join us after work 6pm-8pm. You’re very welcome to bring your friend or partner, We would love to see you, and have a catch up. Put your Christmas jumpers and join us!
Friday, November 9th, 2018
The largest HIV fundraising event – Red Run – is back on 1st December, and we are excited to invite you to support Positively UK once again!
When: 1st December, 11am – 15:00pm
Where: Victoria Park, E9 5EG (NE corner). It’s a 7-minute walk from Hackney Wick Overground.
Along with our peer-led support, Positively UK offers welfare advice and financial support in extreme circumstances. Our hardship payments act as a safety net to cover day-to-day living costs. This year we are hoping to raise funds for our Hardship Fund.
You can run/walk/strut 5k or 10k, or you can simply come to cheer those who will take part. Changing rooms and bag storage will be available.
We will encourage all Red Runners to bring a jumper that they wish to donate. They will wear the jumper until the race begins. We’ll then collect all the jumpers and donate them to Wandsworth Oasis and their charity shops.
London City Voices will sing along the route and flash song mob during the start.
Starbucks will generously pour all participants and guests hot drinks, and the beautiful people at the People’s Park Tavern will once again be hosting the official World AIDS Day Red Run after party with a special BBQ deal: £10 for a burger and beer served in a large heated marquee next to the finish line.
Bring your friends and family, all are welcome to join in the Red Run festivities!
For information contact Ellie: firstname.lastname@example.org
Thursday, November 8th, 2018
by Silvia Petretti, Joint Interim CEO
In February 2017 as I was doing a regular check-up at my HIV Clinic I was asked if I wanted to fill in the Positive Voices questionnaire, produced by Public Health England (PHE). It was quite a bulky booklet; it looked time consuming. But I was offered also a high street voucher for £5, and I had some time to spare as I was waiting for my meds, so I filled it up while sitting in front of the pharmacy.
There were many questions on all aspects of my life: from my experience of the HIV clinic and other healthcare services in general, to more personal stuff, such as other health conditions I may live with, mental health, loneliness, violence, alcohol and drug use, experiences of stigma and discrimination, finances and more. I always find those kinds of questionnaires hard to deal with, especially if you are feeling fragile (and most of us do feel fragile on a dark February morning, during a hospital visit, even if it is a routine check-up). Recalling negative experiences can be quite triggering, and many of us living with HIV have experienced trauma in our lives. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is not uncommon. However, I knew it was important that the life experiences of people living with HIV are heard, and that there is much more to having a good quality of life than just an undetectable viral load and good CD4 Count. I diligently answered all questions, and rewarded myself with a lovely hand cream from Boots with my voucher.
Over 4,400 people with HIV from England and Wales did the same, and answered the questionnaire in more than 70 clinics. Respondents came from all walks of life and provided a good representation of the diverse groups affected by HIV (MSM, BAME, women, trans people etc.) Through our answers we helped creating a very accurate snapshot of what living with HIV is like in England and Wales today.
I am aware that even without doing much I have always been the ‘object’ of research, and so have all the other over 106,000 people who share their lives with HIV in the UK. For example, our data, anonymised, is included by our clinics when they report every year how many people have been diagnosed, how many are on treatment and how many have an undetectable viral load. This information is included in the national yearly report by PHE released every year around World AIDS Day.
So much research is done on us, as people with HIV, but it is still very rare that we are directly involved in analysing it and actively sharing ownership with the researchers. Positive Voices has been different. The leading researchers behind the survey, Valerie Delpeche and Meaghan Kall, got in touch with Positively UK at the end of 2017 to see how we, as the UK leading peer support organisation by and for people with HIV, could facilitate the process of community ownership and interpretation of the data.
Through PHE, we got in touch with people who had answered the survey and who had said that they wanted to get involved. These respondents were invited to events co-facilitated by Positively UK’s Peer Mentors, who are people with HIV trained in mentoring and group facilitation. These stakeholder’s events included input from other organisations: Watipa, which provided expertise in linking our stories and lived experiences to the data, and the National AIDS Trust who worked with us focusing on what needs to change, finalising policy recommendations and writing the three reports. It was a truly collaborative effort with people living with HIV at its centre.
Having worked in HIV peer support for almost 20 year what surprised me was that most of the respondents who came to the stakeholder’s events were not our ‘usual’ service users. Many of them had never used support services before, or spoken to someone else living with HIV. Many were compelled to come forward because they wanted to ensure that their lives and experiences mattered, and that they could be part of making things better for everyone. There was a clear intention from all of us that we did not wish to be solely ‘objects of research’. Behind the numbers from the survey are our lives, and we are best placed to make sense of them. We are reclaiming our agency, overcoming any notions of victimhood, despite the challenges many of us continue to face.
Overall Positive Voices paints a nuanced picture of our lives, from a medical point of view, especially as far as HIV is concerned, we are doing well and we appreciate the excellent HIV care the NHS is providing for us. However, many of us are struggling: 1 in 10 said that they had not told anyone about their HIV status other than healthcare professionals, 14% of respondents experienced discrimination in the NHS in the past 12 months. Mental health problems are reported by half of people living with HIV, twice the rate of the general public. Peer support is recognised as vital for tackling isolation and maintaining wellbeing, yet it remains underfunded and often unavailable to those of us in rural areas, where staggering levels of loneliness were reported.
What became clear, as we listened to each other’s stories and looked at how they illuminated the data that came from Positive Voices, is that the biggest challenges we face are rooted in negative attitudes and misconceptions around HIV. HIV is no longer a death sentence: with access to treatment, care and support we can live healthy and productive lives. Moreover, when we are on treatment and the virus is undetectable there is zero risk of sexual transmission to our partners.
We have taken the first steps of producing a Changing Perceptions campaign because we want to transform how people feel and think about HIV. We know that there is lot more to do and we hope that we will continue this work. We have plans to produce some short films based on our stories, to educate our peers, to inform policy makers, and to inform and challenge those who still discriminate against us in the NHS, and in the general public.
Another important lesson I gained from this process is how healing and therapeutic collective peer engagement can be. As we examined, compared and reflected on our stories, as we offered each other support and gained insight in our own lives, the most inner layers of stigma, self-stigma, our negative perceptions about ourselves and our own value, started to finally dissolve. For example, a person came to the first event not having told any of their friends about having HIV, having been diagnosed for 3 years. By the end of the project not only they had talked and received support from close friends and family, they have moved on to speak at a parliamentary event and challenged policy makers to do more to address the high rates of late HIV diagnosis.
Storytelling is such an important human activity and it has been used since the most ancient times to develop learning, create insight in the diversity of human experiences, and ultimately generate compassion and reciprocal understanding. Let’s hope that we will continue to create opportunities for our stories to be heard.
I would like to acknowledge and thank every single person who responded to the survey, and especially those who shared their stories, either through the comment section in the survey, or from participating to the creation of Changing Perceptions reports. I would like to thank all the people living with HIV and peer mentors who came forward and wanted to be photographed. I would like to leave you with Gabriel’s words, one of Positively UK’s peer mentors who supported the reports:
“For me it was important to give a face and individual voice to what people usually see as only the virus. I hope the project will make people understand that there is a lot of work to be done to eradicate discrimination and address the fears and hurdles that we need to overcome once diagnosed with HIV. The cuts that I have seen across the clinics and charities that made it possible for me to carry on a dignified life, are now limiting access to vital support. I hope ‘Changing Perceptions’ will address all the issues that we are still facing”
A special thanks to Viiv and Gilead for supporting Changing Perceptions
Thursday, October 11th, 2018
Join Chris and the boys for a day out at London’s largest UNESCO World Heritage Site – the Royal Botanic Gardens!
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2018
Positively UK’s next Annual General Meeting has been moved to 30th October 2018.
We invite our peer mentors, volunteers and service users to join the discussion on:
Sunday, September 30th, 2018
As an HIV positive person, attending my first International HIV/AIDS conference, I was astounded by the number of workshops, sessions, stalls, people, stands, organisations… it was an overwhelming experience to begin with.
Part of me finding my feet was to look through the sessions and make decisions around where I attended. I saw a session that really piqued my interest:
‘In search of the fourth 90: Exploring and defining what quality of life means for communities and strategizing how we get there.’
This really resonated with me, for multiple reasons. Having been diagnosed, and now on medication and undetectable, I have been more aware of my wider wellbeing, and what quality of life means to me. With the work that I do as Project Coordinator of Project 100, the idea of quality of life and wellbeing feature heavily in the work we do as a Project. Both Mentors and Mentees have the opportunity and the skills to increase their wellbeing and focus more on their quality of life once the medical aspect of the virus is managed.
The session really explored in depth the concept of what the fourth 90 might be; there was great discussion around what this looked like for individuals, and how does this change with all of the variables present in our diverse lives; socio-economic circumstance, other health conditions, country of residence, ethnicity, social groups, family and lots and lots of other aspects that can and do vary person to person.
This really came to the forefront as we broke into working groups. The section that I worked on with others, was around what kind of aspects make up the fourth 90, what variables are there, and how can the fourth 90 be measured?
I had the privilege of supporting the group map this out, and we engaged in thought-provoking discussion. The real take-away for me was exploring how; how do we measure something as individualistic as quality of life? We discussed what made up quality of life, and then looked at the varying measurement tools available to us currently and how we might go about creating a new tool to achieve this outcome.
This session really began the discussion around our next step as HIV positive people. With the UK almost achieving the three ‘90’ targets: 90% of people living with HIV diagnosed; 90% of them on medication; 90% of them undetectable. This now paves the way for us to begin looking beyond diagnosis and medication, and to our future; collectively and individually. What is your quality of life? What tools, skills or resources do you have to strive towards a greater quality of life? For me, I will continue to strive for a better quality of life, for myself.
by James Morris, Project 100 Coordinator
Tuesday, September 25th, 2018
Since I started working at Positively UK, I think one of the most rewarding pieces of work I’ve done is to be part of the team that delivers our Recently Diagnosed Workshop. I’ve been living with HIV for twelve years. It’s easy for me to forget the feelings of shock, fear, disbelief and confusion that often come with being told that you have HIV.
Working with people to help them come to terms with their HIV diagnosis and know that, in 2018, it’s all about living with HIV, is a privilege. It’s true that being on treatment means that you really can live as long and as healthily as someone that doesn’t have HIV. It’s true that having an undetectable viral load mean you can’t pass HIV on. However, none of that means that when you first find out, you won’t have lots of very different and sometimes difficult emotions. You will, and that’s natural.
That’s why we do workshops for people that have recently found out that they are living with HIV. The workshops are always facilitated by people living with HIV. You don’t have to explain to us about having HIV. We know what it’s like, even if our personal experiences are different to yours. Taking the time to work out your emotions is important. We spend time talking about what your diagnosis has meant for you. We explore what telling other people about your HIV really means. Lots of people come with the question, “Do I have to tell other people?”. We work that out with you. We look at your treatment and how to manage it. Some of our staff and volunteers are now treatment advocates, so we can answer lots of your questions. We even talk a bit about sex and relationships!
We call the Workshop ‘Take Control, Learn, Connect’. It’s a perfect name because we want you to be in control of your HIV and not the other way round. We hope that you will learn both in terms of information and in terms of tips. Perhaps most importantly, we want you to connect. Connection is so important. Some people with HIV end up feeling isolated. This workshop is just one way to break the isolation. In fact, we offer participants to be part of a WhatsApp group just for the people that attended their workshop. Many participants take up that offer and have both given and received support through it. One group we worked with recently now meet socially on a regular basis. True new friendships have been formed, and that’s been great to watch.
If you wonder if a Recently Diagnosed Workshop is for you, this is what some previous participants have said:
‘I often doubt myself, but to hear you say that you believe I’ve got this, gives me a fire and fight to be even more determined to make this work for me!’
‘A massive thank you for everything the Positively UK team did for me over the weekend, it was truly life-changing and I have left the weekend feeling completely inspired and motivated to continue to hit my goals.’
So if you’ve been diagnosed any time in the last three years and feel like you need some support, why not come along? I know I speak on behalf of the delivery team when I say we’d love to meet you and help you to take control of your HIV, and hopefully make some life long connections.
The workshop will take place on 13th and 14th October at Positively UK. Please reserve your place at email@example.com or 02077130444. Reasonable travel expenses will be covered.
Saturday, September 15th, 2018
Despite this, many women may have doubts and/or questions about the implications of having HIV and becoming a parent. This is why we are running a one day Pregnancy Journey workshop, led by our mentor mothers – women who have been through pregnancy while being HIV positive – and with the participation of doctors and midwives, to support women who would like to know up-to-date information on HIV, pregnancy and parenthood.
On the day we will cover:
It will be a great opportunity to meet other women with HIV who are mothers or want to be mothers.
Lunch and Refreshments will be provided. Advance booking is required, reasonable child care costs and travel expenses will be reimbursed
Friday, September 14th, 2018
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Friday, September 7th, 2018
In July 2018 six members of Positively UK flew to Amsterdam to exchange views with other 20,000 activists, policy makers, funders, medics, researchers and pharmaceutical companies attending 22nd International AIDS Conference. Read the reflections of Silvia, our CEO and a lifelong advocate for women living with HIV.
by Silvia Petretti, Interim CEO
The first thing I saw, as I walked in the RAI conference centre in Amsterdam, was a group of African women chanting and holding placards “We demand Dolutegravir for Women” “Women choose what they want” “WHO listen to women, we want DTG”. The women were singing and dancing and protesting in the typical South African style developed by the Anti-Apartheid movement. Songs and call and response harmonies filled the atrium, women moved with graceful steps, in precise dancing rhythm demanding, and getting, attention. They were protesting about the warning on women using Dolutegravir, issued by the World Health Organisation (WHO) in May. Dolutegravir (DTG) is a drug which has shown high efficacy, it is well tolerated and it is has a high genetic barrier to resistance. It is widely prescribed here in the UK, I have been happily on it for a few years!
However, in May 2018 preliminary findings of a pregnancy surveillance study in Botswana, reported an increased risk of neural tube defects among babies of women who became pregnant while taking DTG-based regimens. The study reported 4 cases of neural tube defect out of 426 infants born from women who were taking DTG while pregnant. The neural tube is the early formation of what will become the spine, and it is formed by day 28th of pregnancy. However, the findings from Botswana still need more research. They came from an observational study, and we still do not know if there could be other causes to the neural tube defects, for example lack of folic acid. More information will be available when more data will be analysed in 2019.
Following this preliminary information, a warning was issued by the WHO about prescribing DTG to all women of childbearing age. The warning has resulted in governments of many African countries including Uganda, Kenya, Malawi and others, to take a top down blanket decision and deny access to DTG to all women, regardless of their preferences and plans around pregnancy. Later during the conference, we were invited to a meeting with WHO and UNAIDS with women living with HIV from all over the world to discuss access to DTG. What many women said was that, of course, we have concerns about side effects for ourselves, and when/if we are pregnant, the effects on the unborn babies, but we are not just baby making machines! Women need to be in control, and to have access to contraception to enable choices, alongside easy to understand evidence-based information. At the meeting I heard so many women talking about the horrors of side effects from old toxic drugs, such as efavirenz, which are well known for links to depression, instable moods, difficulty sleeping, bad dreams. Despite this they are still being denied DTG, even when pregnancy is not at all on their list of things to do, as they may be too young, too old, or simply not wanting children. What women want is access to good sexual and reproductive services which include contraception and to the most effective HIV treatment.
What is concerning is the extremely high number of young women in Africa who still do not have an undetectable viral load and who would benefit incredibly from access to better ARVs. Martha Akello, communications officer of the International Community of Women Living with HIV Eastern Africa (ICWEA,) reports that for the young women she consulted with in Uganda, who had been switched to DTG, it meant that: ‘…. their lives had greatly improved because DTG has less side effects and has offered them the chance to live their lives in full once again, being able to work and fend for their families with normalcy’.
Going to the International AIDS Conference and being part this debate was an important reminder for me that access to high quality treatment must be integrated with promoting choices and rights. For women access to ARVs goes hand in hand with advances in Sexual and Reproductive Health and Rights: our bodies our rights our choices!
WHO recommends that women of childbearing potential should receive dolutegravir if they have access to consistent and reliable contraception, but to ensure access to dolutegravir in practice, integration of sexual and reproductive health programmes and HIV programmes needs to be greatly improved.
Friday, September 7th, 2018
In July 2018 six members of Positively UK flew to Amsterdam to exchange views with other 20,000 activists, policy makers, funders, medics, researchers and pharmaceutical companies attending 22nd International AIDS Conference. Read the reflections of David, a young HIV activist and peer mentor.
By David King, Peer Involvement and Volunteer Coordinator
The International AIDS society conference is the largest medical conference in the world. With over 20,000 delegates, speakers, funders and other groups attending. The scale of the event and the breath of people who come from all over the world is astounding. However, even more astounding to me was the lifeblood of activism which flows through the entire gathering. And it usually works in a way that disrupts and challenges how the conference functions.
IAS is unique in the world of conferences in that any activist wishing to protest any session at the conference, who comes up to the stage in protest, under the rules, is to be given the microphone and a chance to express their opinion for three minutes. No matter who is presenting on the stage. I witnessed President Bill Clinton, a juggernaut of global politics, forced to stand down and listen as a group of protestors came to the stage to protest the decision to host the next conference in Oakland, California in 2020. Throughout the conference key players are often challenged and held to account by people in our communities for their actions or inactions.
For myself, as a person living with HIV, to know that in the largest global conference about us, I can come to the stage and call out powerful figures who are not putting their money where their mouth is, was very empowering. I would not say that I found our voices to be of equal weight at the conference as influential doctors, researchers or pharmaceutical companies. The level of community engagement, and the voices of us living with HIV, often seemed tokenistic or an afterthought. But we have a place at a table, and respect to be heard out. It will require us to work together to make demands that represent us, but the foundations are there to make the most powerful people in the room listen to us. And maybe for us, people living with HIV, to understand the power we can have in shaping the micro and macro response to HIV, is greater than we perhaps realise.
I took part in two marches, linked to the conference, while I was there in Amsterdam. The first was organised by the ‘towards zero together’ campaign. The march had three main demands, to call for zero HIV criminalisation, zero stigma and zero deaths by eliminating barriers to treatment. In attendance were hundreds of community figures, people living with HIV and delegates from the conference. The atmosphere was palpable, the speeches excellent and it was empowering to walk through the streets of Amsterdam, with my colleagues, wearing my ‘Proudly Undetectable’ t-shirt, which I obtained at Pride in London earlier in the year. The second march was to highlight the effects of the law, globally, on sex workers and how HIV can intersect with this. Sex workers living with HIV, around the world face inflated risks of extortion and violence, discrimination under the law, and poorer access to treatments. More needs to be done to work with them and other key populations so that we can all live dignified lives with equal protections.
This power of activism at the conference was made apparent to me by the legendary South African activist group, the treatment action campaign and their bad pharma tour. A huge part of the conference is the exhibitor’s hall, where pharmaceutical companies, medical equipment manufactures etc have extravagant, expensive stands, exhibiting their products. Every day at 1pm, TAC collected everyone interested in attending and got them onto an imaginary tour bus. The ‘bus’ then drove into the exhibitor’s hall, causing a ruckus, shouting the words to the nursery rhyme ‘the wheels on the bus go round and round…’ before ‘driving’ up to some of the biggest names in the industry, Gilead, MSC, Roche etc. The staff at the booth would flee as the bus stopped, with participants flooding the stall. The TAC activists would proceed to climb up onto the stall with a megaphone and explain different examples of pharmaceutical greed and unethical practice, to the crowd and everyone in listening difference. For me, it was an incredible way to challenge these companies and some of the ways in which they work against people living with HIV. It reminded me that we are not servants to the powerful forces that affect the lives of people living with HIV globally, that we can challenge the powerful and hold them to account.
“Nothing about us, without us.” Is a phrase that is ingrained in me when I think about any discussion of people living with HIV, all of us must have a place at the table. Decisions about us should never be made without our representative’s present. And that is mine, and many others indignation when we talk about the next conference, in Oakland/San Fransisco in 2020.
Many of the most inspirational people I met at the conference were sex workers and injection drug users, living with HIV, who had the courage to speak openly and represent their communities. When we talk about the global response to HIV, we talk about the most vulnerable populations, Key populations, two of which are sex workers and Injection drug users. Those brave, inspirational, men and women, and millions of others living with HIV, cannot attend the next conference in America. Both groups are barred from entry into the United States. It is wrong, that the largest event in the world, where major policy decisions, deals and the sharing of scientific knowledge about us, people living with HIV, could be hosted in a place where we cannot attend. Where our voices cannot be heard, and we do not have a place at the table.
Nothing about us, without us. In the last 30+ years, globally, activists have put their lives on the line and in some cases died, so that people like me and you, living with HIV, are respected and involved in scientific research, policy decisions and the global response. It’s not right to host the IAS conference in a place where our brothers and sisters cannot attend, and have their voices heard.
I was inspired by the activism that I witnessed at IAS. I was reminded of the power we have as people living with HIV to influence decisions that impact our lives. I will harness that and do what I can to challenge and boycott the hosting of the next conference in the united states.
I asked myself, how would I feel if I was unable to attend this conference, due to a simple fact about my life, which is nobody else’s business. That I was ineligible to be part of the largest global gathering of people like myself. To have my voice stifled and my chair at the table pulled out from under me.
Now I ask you, how would you feel?
Nothing about us, without us.
Wednesday, September 5th, 2018
A crisis may be linked to mental breakdown, cut in welfare benefits, accident, redundancy, homelessness or other personal circumstances, but it always poses threats to the health and wellbeing of a person. Limited access to good nutrition or inadequate housing can cause significant deterioration for people living with HIV and their dependants. Along with our peer-led support, Positively UK offers welfare advise and financial support in extreme circumstances. Our hardship payments act as a safety net to cover day-to-day living costs.
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Wednesday, September 5th, 2018
This year’s edition will be joined by the charismatic Dr Mapara who will provide a fresh glimpse of the anatomy of female pleasure. MAC Cosmetics make up artists will once again boost our self-love by adding a little sparkle to our looks. Sh! Store – the award-winning erotic emporium – will feature products and create a liberating space for us to explore our intimate side away from pressure or stereotypes. We will start at 11:00 with a peer-led exploration of R.E.S.P.E.C.T. (Relationships, Empowerment, Sex, Pleasure, Emotions, Connection, Trust).
Wednesday, July 18th, 2018
The Catwalk for Power, Resilience and Hope – an initiative started by women with HIV in London for International Women’s Day 2018– is going global next week with a workshop at The International AIDS Conference, in Amsterdam. Here is Laura’s account of why the Catwalk for Power is important.
After diagnosis, I lost my confidence and self-esteem. I couldn’t get myself to think I deserved the best in life.
Being part of the Catwalk for Power was transformative, it was organic; it was us, women living with HIV, everyday women who can often be overwhelmed with social inequalities and intersections that can make us underestimate our abilities, who lead and created the event. Everyday women who sometimes forget how much skills and resources we have as individuals and as a community,
When we started with the idea of the Catwalk for Power, we had no clue how exactly it was going to pan out, as we had no blueprint and we were struggling with finances. But we used our life experiences as individuals, mothers, professionals, peers, self-managers, activists etc., as we went on from organising one workshop to the other.
We all had journeys of self- discovery, finding out what we had forgotten we could do, what we didn’t know we could do, or reaffirming what we knew we could do. Using validation, and encouragement, we gave each of us a chance to participate and make decisions and contribute according to our abilities, taking on bigger roles, building confidence. Week after week, we were like flower buds opening up a little bit more
We learnt, we socialized we had fun, we challenged each other and we supported each other. Naturally we had moments of doubt and dips in confidence, but we found innovative and creative ways around them. As always, we were resilient and determined to self-care, look after ourselves, and see ourselves as deserving women, who often put other people first.
We had a variety of workshops to give each woman a choice and a chance to express herself the best way she could: we did hand crafts, watched films, discussed and found spaces to play, to be ourselves, ease off.
On the 7th of March 2018, the day of the Catwalk, for the first time since I was diagnosed I felt pride! Pride at being a woman living with HIV and having the opportunity to be part of this incredible group of resilient women who created a valuable safe place. By creating the Catwalk, we invented a space where to meet each other, search, find, be creative and empower ourselves,
We all strutted our stuff on the catwalk that day, even those who had no plans of walking until then, did: because at that moment, we realized that we are all deserving. We are already enough as we are. We are truly worthy.
Now, I will be part of the delegation taking the Catwalk for Power to the global scene at the International AIDS Conference in Amsterdam – and yes you can still support us by donating here: https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/catwalk4power. This is something that a year ago I would not have believed I could do… I am now looking forward to the future, full of possibilities, my personal life, career and outlook in life have changed because I have finally started to believe I truly deserve it … this is what the Catwalk for Power has been about for me: we didn’t wait for anyone; we did it ourselves by ourselves. We created an enabling environment as women living with HIV to remind ourselves of who we really are, finding the power within ourselves and our community as women!
What we achieved was a big lesson for me about the power of grassroots, taking ownership, creativity, community, sustainable women spaces, collective will and partnerships.
WE ARE HERE!
Bakita, the activist and young poet who introduced us on the night said; “WE ARE TAKING UP SPACE” because THE POWER IS OURS
Commissioners and providers of services, policy makers and all other stakeholders need to work in partnership with women living with HIV to actively support and fund sustainable women centred peer spaces. These spaces are essential in building women’s leadership and capacity to effectively participate in the decisions affecting us, and in enabling us to live well with HIV
The Catwalk of Power Workshop
22nd International AIDS Conference – Amsterdam
Tuesday 24th July
11:00 am 12:30 pm
Global Village Youth Pavilion
The Catwalk for Power is a collaborative initiative supported by Act Up London and Positively UK.
Friday, July 13th, 2018
Positively UK, staff, service users, peer mentors and associates strutted through the streets of central London on Saturday 7th July for Pride in London. David – Peer youth worker, organiser of Positively UK at Pride in London this year, tells us how it went and why Pride still matters to us.
It was a bright sunny day, perhaps too much so, but armed with sun screen and litres of water we congregated before the march in Regents Park. Everyone was in bright spirits and it was great to see such a mix of people involved. There were staff, peer mentors, service users, family and friends, turning up one by one. We put on a bunch of Positively UK t-shirts, pride coloured face paints, copious lashings of glitter and soaked up the great atmosphere of the event, as we got ready. We unfurled our Positively UK flags, and our banner that we would carry throughout the march which proclaimed: ‘Proudly Undetectable.’
We marched from Park Crescent, Regents Park, through the 1.5-mile route ending in Trafalgar square. The streets were lined with a crowd, estimated at close to a million supporters, cheering, waving and giving support. We made a statement that HIV is not over in 2018, and we do not sit quietly, but march through the streets.
The theme of pride this year was PRIDE MATTERS. Today in the UK, (mostly) equal rights do not mean real equality and justice for all. Hate crimes towards LGBT+ people, on the streets of London, have doubled in the last 5 years. Still today 75% of LGBT+ people fear showing affection in public for fear of retribution and violence. In Northern Ireland there is still heavy discrimination with same sex marriage being outlawed. Around the world it is still illegal in 72 countries to engage in same sex relations, and in 10 of those it can carry the death sentence. Transgender individuals around the world face truly inhumane levels of violence and discrimination. Trans people have the highest level of HIV, with abysmal access to health services including HIV prevention, testing, treatment, and care. We have a long way to go.
On the march, passing the cheering crowds I was pondering something to myself. If you would have asked me in my first few years post-diagnosis, if I would walk with my head held high, wearing a t-shirt saying, ‘proudly undetectable’, holding a banner with the same text, I would have said ABSOLUTELY NOT. However, times change. I was not the young man, terrified by my diagnosis a few years ago. I am proud of what I have achieved through volunteering in peer support and subsequently working with Positively UK.
So, for myself personally It was a milestone on my journey living with HIV. I have a choice, when looking at my diagnosis, to live in pride or in shame.
Marching at Pride as an openly HIV positive person reinforced in myself the belief that the only shame in living with HIV, is that which society and others place on us. We write our own stories, and last Saturday I put my shame to rest.
Tuesday, July 10th, 2018
We are starting the process of renewing our five-year strategy and want to ensure that we hear the views of everyone we work with, including: people living with HIV who use our services, our volunteers and trained peer mentors, partner organisations and clinics across the UK.
We would also like to hear from anyone living with HIV in the UK, who hasn’t used our services or participated in our training yet, but may want to get involved in the future.
We want to know what you think we do well and what we should be doing as we move forwards.
This survey has been developed to provide initial feedback. We will follow this consultation by holding focus groups before drafting our new strategy at the end of the summer.
We have already conducted a workshop with our staff and Trustees to find out what matters most to them about the organisation and our work. We asked what they thought matters most to those who access support from us, what makes us different, unique, or that we do better than anyone else and finally what work they think we should be doing moving forwards.
We would now like to ask you those same questions so that we have a sense of what is most important to you .
Deadline for completing the survey is 12th August 2018